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I want to rip my heart out and not feel anymore. I want to move on, drop her like a bad habit. Obviously I've been unsuccessful to this point which really upsets me. I've dated girls in the past and just quit talking to them. No chatting nothing, they didn't exist. It's been 3 fucking months and I"m still talking to her and it pisses me off. ( Read more... ) -
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So I'm sitting here in my old townhome typing on my ex's comp. She and her friends are out spray painting a rock or something. I don't know nor do I care. I feel like I'm waiting for something and I have no idea what that is. A sign and comment something. We are waiting for each other, which is true. She wants to be with me and I want to be ( Read more... ) -
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He tells his last lie, knowing that she knows. He walks away with an empty heart, this is the all time low. She is what he wanted out of life. Even though they went through much strife. He'll regret this moment for all of eternity. Did he make the right choice? He'll ask with uncertainty.
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I've avoided coming on here and putting the my thoughts in words because I know she reads this all the time but I just don't care anymore. My ex doesn't know what she wants and I'm just the sucker to wait around and wonder if I'm it. I've spent 5 years with this woman. Friends to couple to engaged to friends. I mean I still see her, we talk ( Read more... ) -
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So it's Sunday night and I'm doing nothing at all. I went to see Erika tonight and I feel there is nothing left. She doesn't even get excited to see me anymore, no smile, brightness in her eyes. Oh well I guess I need to move on. I'm not doing a very good job about it. People say it takes twice as long to get over someone. 6 years is a long ( Read more... ) -
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Per request of Erika she wants everyone to know we are again back together. We just had a rough last week. But we made up for it yesterday enjoying our easter togeter. Hope all is well with everyone else. -
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So....I haven't been on here in ages. I don't know why I'm on here now but I don't know where else to say this. Erika and I are done, no longer engaged. I have mixed feelings right now. It takes everything in me not to cry. I feel sick in my stomach. Alot of things I've done over the past 3 years have either been with her or for her. I mean ( Read more... ) -
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So tonight was interesting. I came home to find Erika with more cuts on her arms pissed that I took her keys. When she asked for them back I told her she wasn't driving in her condition and she proceeded to cut herself in front of me. I was shocked, I'm still in shock. I don't know what to do. I just don't know what to do.... -
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so here I am on Erika's bed updating my pathetic livejournal. I did Thanksgiving with her parents which was alot of fun. Her mom is hilarious, always telling her dad to hush. They gave me a polo shirt which was interesting, I didn't really know what to say since it wasn't christmas, but I mean whateva. I got to have like massive amounts of ( Read more... )