oh, a relapse.
that was shocking.

convincing my mum i've eaten is way easier when i work 4-9

killer headache. just put a whole new batch of food under my floorboards.

xxx

i am getting so sick of this.
i look in the mirror and i see this.

i see this fat mess.
this girl who is so full of rage that she cant let anybody get close to her.
this girl who not only can't find happiness, but has no desire to find happiness.
this girl who uses her physical appearance to drive people away from her.
this girl who spent the majority ( Read more... )

I wanna drink myself into a frenzy
and never eat a thing again.
I wanna get high every night
and work every weekend, so I can party every week.

That is genuinely all I want.
xxxxx

I really want to get this down in writing, right here, because frankly, it's past the point of being funny.

I meet him, 2008/9?
He tells me we're just friends.
He tells me that I have to lie for him, because he told his girlfriend that I'm in a relationship with someone else.
He tells me that he likes me as more than a friend.
He tells me he can't break ( Read more... )

AND NOTHING IS EVER GOING TO GET BETTER
LOUISE MAKES PLANS WITH ME AND THEN DOESNT FUCKING BOTHER ACTUALLY CARRYING THEM OUT
DAISY DELETES HER FUCKING FACEBOOK FULL OF MEMORIES FROM ME
I FIND CDS IN MY ROOM THAT THEY GUY WHO RAPED ME GAVE ME ABOUT 5 YEARS AGO
I AM SO FUCKING ANGRY I WANT TO SCREAM
BUT I DONT FUCKIG BOTHER BECAUSE
NOTHING
EVER
GETS
BETTER
( Read more... )

today i wasnt even gonna take a shower
And then I got a call sayin that my cousin died in a fire
So I washed myself for what seemed like three hours
With tears and rusty water
I need some of that Calgon take me away action immediately
Before I start scrubbing my hands hard repeatedly
I'm stuck somewhere lethargic between reality
and a fuckin Tool ( Read more... )

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50 cals today, all liquids

fuck you, body

i might not be able to keep it up tho cos dai is coming round in a bit.

blah.

xxxx
 

NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU.

think about it, do you really care about anyone?

all 'friends' want to do is mold you into something that fits THEIR ideal.
they might make you ugly so they look pretty.
they might make you a loser so they look cool.
friends choose the fat ugly ones to make themselves feel better
so guess what?
everyone is fat. and everyone is ( Read more... )

re: last post

'why do i feel like i'm blissfully unaware or something right now?'

IT'S BECAUSE I WAS! lol.
Alfie got back together with Tasha, and didn't tell me.
Awesomeeeee.

I'm just a little bit psychic sometimes.

I might be in denial, but I really don't feel like I care...poor her, to be honest. Her boyfriend cheated on her, never told her, then got ( Read more... )