well i don't remember most of the past week. hell i can't remember almost all of it. and a lotta these old entries are a total blank to me cause i dunno who i'm complaining about. if you're a woman whos ever had any kinda uh.... intimate contact with me sorry but i forget who ya are. yeeeep. i feel a lot better though today i woke up in a really ( Read more... )

i seriously need fuckin help. i can't stop thinking about eveything and anything.i can't deal with flippin out anymore. i'm sick of being angry, sick of being miserable, all i'm doing is destroying myself and takin others down with it. its gotta stop.

deleted my myspace and probally gettin rid of this too since nobody reads it. fukkit

fuck all my exes. all of you are liars and my mother was right, none of you, not one damn one of you was anywhere near close to worthy of me. fuck you all.

i've had this weird reoccuring dream where i'm in this wierd old hospital and pushin around some kid in a coma on a cart. had no clue what the fuck that was about till last night when the dream finally made sense. apparently in the dream i'm with some group that visited the hospital and each person was assigned a kid to hang out with for the day ( Read more... )

i dunno what my purpose for existing is but i need to be told what it is quick before i just block out the world. at this rate i'm gonna drive everybody around me nuts if i haven't already.

apparently alienating the world is the solution to my fuckin problems. eh fuckkit maybe i'll scare everybody off and then i won't be aggrivated anymore! yay!...nahhh i'll whine about nobody being around.this is a no win situation. maybe... i should throw the computer out the window.. yessss throw the computer out the window and that'll solve all my ( Read more... )

my mind's rotting out on me like the body on an old chevy. piece by piece it just goes away away away never to come back. ehhhh what did i do in a previous life to deserve this. all i ask for is my fucking mind to rest. just one day,one goddamn day can i go without thinking the world is shit and i'm the colon that it passes through. i'm sure there' ( Read more... )

ya know what i'm sick of? writing whiny live journal entries about how i hate being single, my relationships lasting a month, and how breakups make me miserable. i'm really fuckin sick of it, i'm not learning my lesson obviously. i'm obviously being fucking stupid and throwing myself at girls that don't want a relationship and it just doesn;t seem ( Read more... )

haha time to go to bitchface palace. i smell like fire. i forget wtf i drank but it was good. woooorf. welll i meant word but woooorf works.