i really wish i knew how to fix this...i got a veggie tray today...so i guess thats good. maybe ill eat that. today i had half a yogurt and i forced myself to have a slice of pizza. but i got so upset...i started crying and ended up throwing it up. i need help so badly...but i feel like i did this so why should anyone help me? idk...i just wanna ( Read more... )

seven

no longer for this world. too much air have i stolen and wasted. its too bad ill have to take up so much ground and remain on this earth.

man i hate the holidays...but its fun getting things for my boyfriend. i think ill do it more often. not just at christmas. fnuhfuihuiwdha ( Read more... )

Well it looks like my rant will be on hold indefinitely....im not really mad anymore. damn me...i can never go to bed mad...and not only cause its a saying....

u ask me a question, i say no...so u ask me again? umm...guessing u really thought it was me invading your privacy...you say you trust me. do u honestly think that i would lie about that? like wtf? i was kinda annoyed that u asked me in the first place considering how bad i felt (and reacted) when i went on ur myspace that one time without asking ( Read more... )

rawr...i hate not having the internet...yeah aladin rocks....ill write more later when im at my own computer... fnuwsughihwguigf

~Rachel

p.s. i love my baby

i feel so empty. i need to do something. im all alone for the whole rest of the day and its only like 3:00. shit. jfkjwijfow. i wanted to write more...maybe i will later.. i like having this journal because, unlike my xanga, noone really knows i have it. kev does, but thats cool.

~ Rachel

i really wish i didnt bring people so much pain. why cant i just be a person who puts only smiles on ppls faces. thats my new goal in life. i want everything involving me to bring smiles to ppl. if anything involving me brings any sort of discomfort to anyone, im going to kill myself. and itll be well deerved. i mean..look at what i did to my ( Read more... )