ok ok ok......so! i have somethings to figure out and anyone with any feed back would be grand ( Read more... )

its 2006!! and i just found out my name means Sun in Russian! and that it was popular in 1900! who would have thunk. haha!!! anyway thought i would write something for i havent in a very long time sooooo here i am! I live now with fun-ness in my heart! its amazing things are almost too palatable! I feel the most comfortable in a long time if not ( Read more... )

so life is fun isnt it?! i think i actually do love it now.....its strange....i continue to jump in and out of happiness from day to day. i feel like i have a slight grip but then i realize i dont what i have a grip on....ya know? i mean i love it here i do! i think ill stay for a while and finish school...but i have found this new dream that ( Read more... )

so i just got back from my session with Jen. and guess what i learned today that i sort of already knew but has become more solid, like a rock. so here it is in the best form ever....writing~!.......drum role please ( Read more... )

oh ya my life is soooo peachy-kean! i am constantly reminded of my faliures and my "bad" decisions! its like a party! a party filled with black balloons and hateful looks....an over the hill party perhaps? i kinda feel like that....over the hill....im so old! and i really never thought i would see the day when i was 21 and its less than a year away ( Read more... )

so yeah life seems to be moving along ok....but for some reason when all seems "still" and finally peaceful i am the most sad! this doesnt make sense to me in a large way! it makes me think that im just sad all the time and didnt even know it because my life has always been full of nasty things...so when all seems to be ok and i finally figured out ( Read more... )

forget this world we live in. it is full of crap and over-weight big wigs. life has become too much planning...no time for true relaxing. and i dont mean vacations or trips to the spas,i guess i really dont know where it is but i can find it sometimes! like if im driving, or i just found the right line in someones face that only appears when they ( Read more... )

my bro is about to graduate!! yes thats right one of the Adler children will walk down and get their diploma like a normal person! hurray!! i know i had no real outcome in how he is now but i still kinda feel proud! i guess i kinda did in a sense cause i gave him an example of something NOT to become! and hey! he accomplished that! hes gunna go ( Read more... )

i guess....my final sum is that:

The reason you are broken up with me now,
is because of how you acted 4 months ago
(estimation of the date).

if you think otherwise, give me a call, and we will see.

i guess this entry is gunna be an apology to all who read my last one...and thought too harsh (cause i know some of you just dont care). well im sorry for being so rash yesterday...i was a tad pissed and it turns out ive been pissed for over several months now without me even knowing. yeah....it turns out im still hurt! surprising! ive been hurt ( Read more... )