so much fucking time has passed and this damn sickening disheartening feeling can never pass i was so in love and sadly i still am and thats the worst part no matter how hard i can try no matter how much i pray or sacrifice nothing can ever change the fact that the odds are always stacked against me it always seemed like destiny and a dream come ( Read more... )

o jsut woke up from a nightmare im not even sure why i recall a really good dream ive been in shock for the pasy 15 minutes since i woke up i sat straight up screamong and in tears adn my heartbeat hasnt eased it feels 5 times faster and my chest is at the point where i think its going collapse its been past the three day recovery and my bak feels ( Read more... )

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IVE BEEN PLAYING A FUCKING SMITHS SONG ON MY GUITAR FOR AGES UNAWARE OF IT ( Read more... )

i cant sleep and am loosing my fucking mind as a result of it each day is just turning into an endurance race to see which will win out first the pain or exhaustion i cant sleep i cant rest i cant think and salvation is no longer in sleeping pills muscle relaxers or pain killers im running out of fucking options and theres no end in sight ( Read more... )

another day spent in pain having to deal with these damn spasms in my back and having to wake up and deal with getting shocks for an hour isnt all that alluring of an idea   this whole month i had an inkling of hopr thnking that all would be well and things would be perfect once again and permanantly stay there it was gonna be 9 weeks of bliss and ( Read more... )

first my heart was broken then came my birthday and how was it celebrated with a horrible painful back injury im hopped up on pain killers morphine shots an even then it still took 4 days to be able to walk again at the very least im out of work for 2 weeks and its looking like im going to need a walker to get around since the nerve injury took out ( Read more... )

i canceled my life insurance policy today and my heart sank as i signed off on it seeing your name removed off that paper was harder than i could have ever imagined.

Don't you know that I'll be around to guide you ( Read more... )

blasting romeos distress with the windows rolled down at the corner of laramie and chicago is not the brightest idea