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zen mASter joSe: love you to breeze

i miss you jose

Do you ever sit back and look at the night sky and just wonder?  Wonder why life seems so fucked up at time and then yet other times it's great.  Or think how life throws these fucked up things in your direction.  The fucked up relationships, not just dating relationships but friendships.  How can something, this life, be so predetermined?  Like ( Read more... )

well forget my entry yesterday/early this morning......i just worry to much. i know he not with anyone else..he loves me and wouldn't do that to me. just stupid me thinking to much...but what else is new. well i am back to the dark hair...i like it. its chesnut brown and black(the black being there before)...it looks good though, i love having ( Read more... )

I am so lost and confused at how to feel.  That moment when you realize that if he wnated to he could be fucking someone else.  That point when even though he says he loves me and that things will work out, you still have that insecurity.  He hurts and has been hurt before.  I broke my promise that I wouldn't break his heart like everyone else.  I ( Read more... )

Just take me away from this hell I've created I'm afraid.Just remember that it will work out, whether closure can happen.

Well within just the past couple days i have been stressed and pondering so much...i have had a couple of emotional breakdowns...i mean it has been hard one of the people i care about most in this world left for FL in july 29...Jose you are like my brother you know when you said you never meet anyone you got close enough to call your sister well i ( Read more... )

Well you know they always say you are your own worst enemy...well it is true. why is when i get to that happy point in life i always find a way to destroy it. i know that what i want is to be happy and be free of pain. but i keep bring pain upon myself....no not in and physical way...but mentally. how can it be that i can anybody who needs it ( Read more... )

Would you miss me if i was to take my last breath tonight?