hollah atcha girl.

add it! <333

tinyypanda

i don't know, i guess i feel like everything is just in it's place right now
it feels good.

so this weekend was nice. i stayed with dillon and we mostly just ate, watched movies, slept, and fought. well, we probably fought more than anything but we established an understanding that we love eachother to pieces even though...we're kinda jerks.

sakoshfbsew god damn the weekdays.

if you keep doing it
i guess i can't stop you but
you're just killing yourself more
and everyone knows it and everyone can see it
i know they love you but
i've heard what your friends say about you

and i am not going to sit around and help you die
not anymore.

i'm finished
there are way more people who are actually willing to put time into our friendships
that call and care and have been there when i needed it

you don't try at all
you use lame copouts
and i doubt you even care
a simple phonecall isn't that hard
fuck it

yesterday i had to take a lot of blood tests
they took fucking EIGHT VIALS of blood
i felt so sick
i practically passed out

the nurse made this old man get off a bed so i could lay down.
so embarassing

new medication today ( Read more... )

it really sucks when you're so consumed with the possibility that the things you love are going to be taken away from you or leave,
you don't even have time to appreciate them

and i'm pretty sure if i keep doing this everything i love will leave
so STOP IT, AMANDA.

i just got to the bay area today
all i want to do is cuddle with dillon
and sleep for ungodly amounts of time

this is fucked