why is it that it feels like everyone i either grew up with or went to high school with.. is either popping out babies or getting married?! what the fuck?! even people i went to grammar school with.. what is this about? please someone explain this to me because i really don't understand..

birthdays blow. i'm home alone. doing nothing. with no drive to do anything.

i'm trying to remember how to be happy.. how to just laugh & smile & not give a shit.. i honestly think that if i felt like that again then everything would fall into place. working on my knee would be so much easier, studying would be a lot more fun, i wouldn't give two shits about tim... this all sounds so stupid but my life is exactly like i'm ( Read more... )

remember when we all use to write in our melos & our lives were completely different?
i read my melo yesterday.. i almost want to be back there & have those feelings just to have feelings again.. to have deep feelings again not these here and there feelings haha

what i would give to be able to be good with words again..

i totally win hands down, on the who had the worst valentines day this year.. i got hit by a car yes yes indeed i got hit by a car.. & not just me... the completely adorable boy i was seeing got hit also.. he is worse off then i am but i think i win in the number of broken bones.. & now i hurt all the time... can't walk without a cane & just hang ( Read more... )

i'm happy for the first time in a long time..

i have a jealous heavy heart... :(

samantha cured cancer.
... afterward, samantha went to the movies alone.
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i'm sorry, i'm poison don't come near me don't talk to me i ruin everything that is good.. especially when for once in my life something feels amazing & i go & ruin that too.. it just wouldn't be my life if i didn't ( Read more... )

my life is not what i ever wanted it to be.. i feel like a failure, i feel ashamed, i feel like i just keep fucking up. & i just can't get my life on track..

& i feel this way because i'm not doing anything with my life but working..

& why do i want him to crawl into my bed.. he should be over. way over.