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hessuigeneris

smokin' and drinkin'

Apr 30, 2007 11:32

just when i start to think i know who i am and i've made some progress, it all gets fucked. simple as that. it gets fucked up.
i hate my job, i hate my hair, i'd hate my cat if she wasn't so cute
i haven't asked myself this question since i was about 16
why is growing up so hard?
why is it so ridiculously painful and stupid?
maybe because i'm 22 and i'm ( Read more... )

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passionslave May 1 2007, 22:14:15 UTC

okay so I totally and COMPLETELY feel you on the college thing. I find myself a little jealous when I see all these people experiencing the full on college thing. Moving away, meeting new people, being apart of a new school and getting involved in clubs and parties and the dorms... it's just something I wish I could have experienced. And all because I was told to go to a JC so I didnt push myself in high school ( ... )

hessuigeneris May 1 2007, 23:11:09 UTC

just knowing that someone knows what i'm talking about helps.
i'm trying really hard to look at my situation objectively, but i'm just so caught up in what feels like defeat that i don't see any positive changes anytime soon. which is silly, because it's all up to me.
the hardest part is that some of the changes i know i need to make, i really, really don't want to make.

i need a vacation!

haha life story.. daaang h0plezr0mantic May 8 2007, 18:09:42 UTC

hi im gina.. i think were myspace friends.. I saw your comment on kims page so I thought i'd lurk and see who you were haha ( ... )

Re: haha life story.. daaang hessuigeneris May 8 2007, 18:57:22 UTC

you totally don't have to apologize. any positive reinforcement that just because i didn't do things "the right way" that doesn't mean my life is always going to be a mess. i just know i definitely made it more difficult for myself :/
thank you though, what you told me gives me more hope :)
and i actually just got a new job that will help me get more financially stable too so it looks like things might be turning around sooner than i thought. thank goodness.