i already lost my train of thought. as soon as i feel a rush of thoughts i censor them in case someone might read them and be offended. i have horrible thoughts about my family right now, my dad to be frank, and i hate it. i know he's worked so hard to get where he is, but where is he?
fuck this.
this isn't even going to help.

i want someone to tell me that he's doing horrible, that his eyes are swollen and bloodshot from crying so much so hard, but i'll never hear that ( Read more... )

there's nothing i can do right now. there's no way to go back or get my mind of it or even come close to feeling ok ( Read more... )

you're damned if you do and you're damned if you don't ( Read more... )

just when i start to think i know who i am and i've made some progress, it all gets fucked. simple as that. it gets fucked up.
i hate my job, i hate my hair, i'd hate my cat if she wasn't so cute
i haven't asked myself this question since i was about 16
why is growing up so hard?
why is it so ridiculously painful and stupid?
maybe because i'm 22 and i'm ( Read more... )

hearing about friends being engaged or possibly becoming engaged in the very near future makes me really excited ( Read more... )

i'm really not taking care of my body like i should be ( Read more... )

i think i'm in love with the IDEA.
how things could be.
and how i pretend things are in my head.

i have nothing profound or even semi-meaningful to say ( Read more... )

does it really matter how long it took him to tell me exactly what i've been needing to hear ( Read more... )