Someone please tell me why when you like a girl, the girl hurts you but when the girl likes you, you hurt the girl. The day after my birthday, and I got blasted the big one....I can't believe it. I'm actually hurt, and I haven't felt hurt in a long time. Am I slowly losing my mind, my self interpretation of what I believe I truelly am? A good, ( Read more... )

Update on Evan's Life ( Read more... )

So.....tonight I was jarred awake ( i was sleeping around 9pm.....napping) by my mom asking me to do her a favor. Watch my grandmother while she takes my dad to the emergency room. What the fuck. My dad is in the hospital right now, and I can't even really.....handle it. I hope nothing bad happens to him. My mom said his heart rate was over 140 bpm ( Read more... )

My life is completely pointless right now. Other than a few people who keep me going each day, and you know who you are, my life is just....that. Blah. Pointless. I'm bored. I need to get out of here. I hate my loathing in self apathy. Ya know, when I was in college, there was no time to loathe and feel shitty about yourself. The life was always ( Read more... )

The older blue-collared man at the bar....drinking away his work problems, while his wife and kids wait at home ( Read more... )

There's Got To Be More To Life Than This

daily drives to work far past Hell

smoking to think about how much smoking kills me more than just physically

writing songs in my room for no-one to hear but me

writing songs for no-one to hear period...

wishing there was something more, something bigger....my devine plan, if you will

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Today is going to be hell on earth. 12 hours of straight standing. Work really gets at me sometimes......I'm probably going to pass out when I get home at 11 o clock tonight. :(

Fuck. I was going to post a short story about being at Birdland in 1959, but....I guess it's going to have to wait. Writer's block caught me early :)

sucks

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