You miss me. I told you so.

I will see you soon. That is an amazing feeling. That is a huge sigh of releif. I wont have to wonder any longer. I wont have to wait any more. I will sleep again and eat again. Things will shift back into the grooves we create and life will even out ever so slightly. Smoothing the wrinkles. Things havnt been good but I hide that. Sure Im having a ( Read more... )

Again I am left with nothing to say. I think waiting dries my thoughts out. Withers them away until all I can foccus on is what Im waiting for. It seems like so long. I dont want to wait that long. Time will pass yes but not fast enough for my likeing. Sigh.

9 Days and Counting...

I...yea that's all I got. I have nothing. I hate everything. Im so tired and too frustrated to deal with anything. I want to crawl in my hole and sleep for the next two weeks. I dont want to see anyone. I dont want to talk or move. "I will call soon" sure you will. Why do I get this angry? why do lash out at everyone? I dont get it. Why am I so ( Read more... )

Call me and tell me it's going to be alright. Put my worries to rest. Tell me everything or at least something. Dont disapear. Dont run. You will be fine, we will be fine. Everything will be as new as the day it was found.

I am invisible. I am the seething breathing carpet you lay on. My face in the fibers and my fingers in the dirt that laies on the surface. I could vanish. Be a mystery for the rest to follow for the rest of their days. Be the thing that haunts them in their sleep and mocks them while theyre waking.purple ribbons of secrecy littering the edge of my ( Read more... )

You are coming home to me. soon. yes you are coming home soon. If I wanted it badly enough it would happen. I had a feeling. I thought it was stupid. I thought I was in denile. I thought I was imagining things because I just needed it that much. I needed to beleive a lie to make the blow of your absence easier. Less harsh. But you are coming home ( Read more... )

I didnt really want that. I thought I did, I thought it would fix things, distract me, side track me from my thoughts. I thought it would make me feel better and continue to make me feel better but it didnt and it hasnt and it wont because I dont want it. I almost cried. I could feel the tears welling up and I was praying they wouldnt fall but all ( Read more... )

I want to go somewhere so that I can be missed. I want to drive to some unknown destination. Drive just to drive. Leave just to come back and come back just to leave again. The puppy is crying at my feet and i want nothing more than to be anywhere than where I am at this moment. No more jello and children. No more coffee and people I am all too ( Read more... )

I made it rain just for you.