In order to continue, I need to stop doing nice things for others as a distraction for my own misery.

But what life is worth living when you choose to not do nice things and reach out to those in need?

I dont understand any of this.

I spent my whole life compensating for others shortcomings, so sometimes I forget how extraordinary you are. Its not because I doubt you, but because thats what Im used to.

Stick around and Ill learn how to remember.

Long time no type. Work and play have both kept me busy, but that's nothing new ( Read more... )

I have this habit. I make a million commitments and can only follow through with about ten of them. I've been doing it all my life ( Read more... )

I am so disgusted by you at this point in time. You aren't even treating me like a fucking human being anymore. I don't need you to save me. I don't want you to save me. I want you to fucking save yourself. I want the old you back because the new you will never do anything but fuck people over and fail pathetically ( Read more... )

I am so sorry ( Read more... )

Fuck your god. Where is he now?

If your god existed he wouldn't have let me get to this point.

I have dealt with so much in the past. This is worse than ever. There is no one carrying me along some sandy shore.

Fuck your god for letting it all come down to this one little thing.

I don't know why I keep updating ( Read more... )

I'm having a bad day again and it's only 7:10 ( Read more... )

I don't know how to explain this to anyone. I don't know how I'll explain this to everyone. There is nothing left to lose. I thought I'd take comfort in knowing there's nothing else that can be taken from me, but you know what? I don't feel better. I still want the same thing I wanted this morning when I'd realized I'd woken up ( Read more... )