I'm an idiot, and the worst kind of masochist.
Will I ever be able to sleep again without seeing his face?

I had the most ridiculously horrible dream last night ( Read more... )

This could be the absolute loneliest I've ever felt in my life.
I don't want to be alone right now.

Who's going to rub my back when I wake up crying?

This is long overdue, and I've been avoiding it, but the accident has been brewing just below the surface of my thoughts for the past week and I need to get some stuff out ( Read more... )

Last night was a mindfuck ( Read more... )

I feel like my efforts are futile.
In every aspect of my life.

I stayed the night at his house last night. I had one of those 'too hazy to be real, but too vivid to be a dream' moments this morning. I rolled over, saw that it was light out, looked at Ryan, saw that he was asleep, rolled back over and closed my eyes. Right then, his dad knocked and came in. I kept my eyes shut. He woke Ryan up and said, "She ( Read more... )

Ryan's dad and I were talking about how I want to manage but I have no industry experience yet, and he wants to hire me to book shows for his band so help me get started. <3

I never want to ruin those perfect nights so I always wait until to very last second and by then it's too late.

This not having internet at my house thing is not even flying ( Read more... )