If I were a color, what color would I be? Perhaps purple. Maybe pink. I like pink. Very feminine. Purple is fun, funky. Pink is feminine and soft. Am I feminine? No. I have a yucky, nasally voice that I can't stand. I am soft. Way too soft. I need to get in shape. On the up side though, when I went to my rheumy yesterday, I had lost 3 pounds since ( Read more... )

I can hardly wait - less than a month to go ( Read more... )

I did my Morning Pages today and had a revelation. I am a worthwhile person. I deserve good things. I deserve to be treated well. I deserve to be pampered. And my pink Dooney & Burke purse is a symbol of that worthiness. It began to form for me when I was doing the Artist's Way last summer. It was a good thing for me. The exercises helped me to ( Read more... )

My SD is supposed to be at our house tonight. It'll be the first time she has stayed w/ us since the end of May. It's like having a stranger come and visit. She's 17 and going through the typical teenage attitude - then add on the fact that I'm the stepmother and, apparently, am the antichrist. I'm so tired of the stress and strain. And I'm tired ( Read more... )

I really need to write a book on surviving stepparenting. It's a struggle that I never expected. Certainly didn't expect it to be this much of a roller coaster. Jodi hasn't spent the night with us in ages. I bet it was the beginning of June. Probably 5 or 6 weeks. She claims she's working. But her weekend job is only a couple of miles away from us ( Read more... )

I know it is hard for Jodi. But it's also hard for me. Sometimes I feel like the fifth wheel in my own home. I'm in limbo. Not a parent. Not a friend. I found out Friday that I had to work today - originally I was scheduled to be off, but such is the life of a peon. Emailed my MIL to see if she would be available to watch my daughter. She said yes ( Read more... )

I'm so glad it's Friday. It has been the longest week. JR and I are fighting. We had a big fight this morning. I am going to a writing conference in April. This is a big deal to me. It's very exciting to me. I have been planning for this and looking forward to this for months. It is one lousy weekend. About a month ago, he announced that he wanted ( Read more... )

There just aren't enough hours in the day. I know this is awful, but I am so tired of my hubby snoring on the couch every night. I know he works hard, but so do I. And I am the one that ends up doing the extra things (though he did make supper tonight). It is nearly 10, and I still have to put dishes away and reload the dishwasher, fold clothes and ( Read more... )

I lost my best friend in 2003 to cancer. The title of "best friend" is a bit misleading. She and I were best friends in high school, but had drifted apart over the years. We went different directions. Still - I considered her my best friend. She and I shared so much - and so exclusively. There is a lot about me that no one else but her knew about ( Read more... )

I am so excited for Christmas this year! I think I'll be glad when it's over though. This month has been so busy, there's very little down time. Don't get me wrong - a lot of it has been fun, but I am very possessive of my alone time. I like having time to just veg, or play with the dog, or scrapbook, or write. Or just sit and think. I haven't been ( Read more... )