Im stressed.  No surprise there.

I know my time left in Mexico is short, now I am ticking off the days.  One at a time.  Watching the clock is taking too long.  Theres one thing I really want right now and I dont know if this is the point in time to go for it  Sorry I am being vague.  Why am I apologizing?  this is me writing for me.

Being in touch ( Read more... )

Has it really been a month since I wrote in this last?  Feels like it was just yesterday.  I guess I have done a lot of traveling since I wrote last.  I went back to Wyandotte, and then I had a week in Hawaii.  So thats how you get to the first week of November ( Read more... )

I did something the other day that was typically out of character for me. I guess its a story of where I have come from since my younger days, but I prayed. I prayed hard for something that I felt I really needed. I was desperate for some kind of solution, so before I went to bed, I knelt at its side, closed my eyes and sought a peace of mind for ( Read more... )

I don't know how it happeened, but my life is suddenly complex now.  That is something I certainly never expected.  I came back down here for a lot of different reasons, mostly self-serving ones.   I liked being by myself.  I like saving money and not spending it on things I didnt want or need.  It is overwhelming now that I am in a situation where ( Read more... )

I decided to stop being an American piece of shit while I am here. Therefore, I have made a concentrated effort to learn Spanish. I asked all the engineers to speak to me in Spanish only, or at least try to do that when possible ( Read more... )

Real talk- it hasnt been a very good last week here in Mexico. I know I volunteered to come down here and I have laid out multiple times the reason why but it's just now starting to kick me in the teeth for being lonely ( Read more... )

You ever spend days looking out your window, or looking at a wall and wondering how the fuck you got where you were? I mean the world has existed for a countless number of years before I was born and it will exist for countless numbers of years once I die and I spend most of my life waiting for a phone call that never comes, or moments that never ( Read more... )

I have to be retarded. Why did I decide to come back to Mexico? blahblahblah bullshit about job security and more money and other rhetoric. I don't know if I believe half the shit im saying to myself ( Read more... )

I am in an odd mood. I admittedly have been pretty good lately, like for the past...few months. Now that I am in Chicago (for the time being) it has brought out a strange side of me ( Read more... )

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