ever get the feeling that someone else is living your dream life?

i feel so so so weird right now.

jimmy in apriiiiiiiiiiillllllll and spring break cannot come soon enough.

i waited two months for that.

i needed it so much.

now things can be okay finally i think.

im glad you have a heart again.

youre finally the person i remember.

how bittersweet.

memorize this feeling. i doubt there's anything else like it.

im sick of being drawn back in to feeling like crap. its senior week and i just want to have fun. but for me and nic, thats just not happening ( Read more... )

things i have learned so far ( Read more... )

i feel so mixed up right now. i feel like i couldve avoided a lot of the pain ive felt lately. i feel like the people who cared about me dont anymore. and i feel like thats my fault. i feel like im talking to a stranger. i feel like im not worthy of feeling happy anymore. i feel like everything is going so so wrong ( Read more... )

ive yet to write anything about this. it still hurts. his sister sent me a couple of really sweet emails. i wonder if he told her. if not i hope she doesnt hate me when she finds out. i love her too much. i think how close family stuff was has made this tens times harder. i miss ann and wes and everyone so much ( Read more... )

cant i please press rewind now??

so i got some pretty amazing spectacular christmas presents this year, the best being....an acceptance letter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooooooooooo. yes folks, maddy's going to college:) my mom didnt give me the mail on saturday when it came so i literally got the letter on Christmas morning:) it was even to my top choice:):):)

let the senioritis