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Not really any better, i sorta talked to my dad when we went out for dinner at the diner down the street. He wasnt very reassuring, he just told me how when he moved and then went back to visit it was weird because everyone had moved on and everyone had changed. I came home and started crying and my first instinct was to run up to my room. I ran ( Read more... )

im ready for us to go ahead and move already. ive said all my goodbyes and im fucking sick of watching my house disappear. its the weirdest feeling in the world because everyone already acts like im not here anymore (well not everyone) and i just feel like i dont belong here anymore. i just really need to feel needed right about now, starting over ( Read more... )

wow I haven't been to the CP pool in probably two years. But i went today w/ Dina but we kept getting in and out bc there was thunder and you have to wait 30 min after each roll, it's annoying. So then we walked in town and I got a mocha coconut frappuccino and then we went to see Swimming Pool (pools are todays theme). It was pretty good but the ( Read more... )

Lauren left for Colorado this morning. I cried. It's the beginning of the end. It means taht Im next, and that when I get out there, I'm not even going to have my sister, one of my best friends in the world, by my side. I was just filled with this overwhelming loneliness as she pulled out of the driveway, no noe can understand how horrible this ( Read more... )

Had my last Pirouettes practice tonight, and I'm kinda sad to be leaving this behind, but at the same time I'm just so tired, I'm relieved to be done with it all. I wanna write Sheryy a letter though, cuz in spite of all the shit i hate about her, she's been a HUGE influence in the way I've grown up and she's known for so long through good times ( Read more... )

ok, so man, what a weekend ( Read more... )

I worked in my dad's shop today. Non-stop sanding! grr and now i have practice. Not only am i exhausted, but after monday practice i'm sooo scared, i REALLY don't want to go. But tomorrow is some little going away fiesta with the team at a swim club instead of practice so that should be fun! Im excited for that, it'll be fun to be the guest of ( Read more... )

holy mother of god i <3LOVE<3 gummi bears. i'm gonna finish this bag dude. there are supposed to nine servings in this bag and i'm gonna eat the WHOLE THING in one day. i'm disgusted by myself but i caaaaannn't stoopp ( Read more... )

Thursday: did nothing, went to practice and did a lot of back walkovers on beam. After practice took a shower at home and then I slept over at Ariadne's and we hung out and watched tv ( Read more... )