The anxiousness feels the room and every eye is on me. If I choose to be honest then the scene will be dramatic and fast, but if I choose to fake and dance around the room then the scene will graceful and drawn out. It is always up to me. I've always been one for the spotlight, so tonight I will scream at the top of my lungs what is exactly wrong ( Read more... )

The train screeches behind me, chugging and pulling into a new town. This city never sleeps. I'm not sure how I'll ever repay you for choosing me. It was me out of all the others. It doesn't seem fair to you. If I was braver and less shy I would run and jump to catch that train, and ride it into a new town with new beginnings. Maybe I would start ( Read more... )

It's freezing cold. Brush the hair away from my eyes. "Are you crying?" Does anyone every truly cry? I'm bound to faking emotions just to get by. I lost myself years ago to violence and chaos, now I'm just looking to get the lost golden girl back. Fall asleep with bruises and cuts and wake up with yours would healing and your eyes no longer sewed ( Read more... )

Summertime comes and summertime quickly goes. It escapes us like a bandit, a bank robber hoping to catch his getaway car. I've spent all of my sunshine days and flowers on a fairy tale, waiting for a boy I hardly knew. How do you know when you're going to be okay? Its when you laugh a real laugh and you smile as wide as you can. The nights slip ( Read more... )

It seems as though I've forgotten everything that makes me function. I can't talk, I can't walk, and I can't sleep. All I find myself writing about is a boy I lost again and again and the sea. Come to my window with your rocks in hand and prepare for the nights adventure. Never doesn't always mean never, but we can pretend. I held my eyes shut ( Read more... )

I'm running out of oxygen faster than I'm running out of time. I need a lighthouse; I am a sinking ship. The calm before the storm never lasts as long as the hurricane and it washed us far away from each other. You are bad news, a weight too heavy to load. I am speaking to myself as I would a good friend, saying it's going to be okay it will all ( Read more... )

i hate how everything we say sounds like it is straight out of a teenage romance movie. and every thought became a collage of all the words and feelings i would never say aloud. i hope someday you find that someone who makes you want to settle down, not just settle. i could lay here forever, with one hand propping my head up and other on your ( Read more... )

memory reels come playing over, and over again in my mind. records of voices and words repeating every consonant and vowel. and dear you, i'm sorry i have a tendency to throw the phone at you as you slam the door on your way out. sincerely, me. "don't throw him away." he's already put me away though. i'm shaking, and somehow, even in the springtime ( Read more... )

My heart still races whenever I see him. My skin still tingles and flushes at his touch. "Lucky girl." I am the lucky one. Late night rendezvous. "I think I'm just afraid." I am too. Waking up beside the teenage girls dream guy. The lucky one. It is my way of getting by. Together till the last drop, and then we depart from this, separately, forever ( Read more... )

He waited in for me in the freezing cold. Get your act together. Its so hard to just sit beside you, but I'm willing to learn all your tricks. I want to become more than just this. I miss holding your hand. I miss us. I used to hide behind your limelights glow. Everything was so brightly lit then. I am alone, the lights have been turned off and the ( Read more... )