Life is so confusing. I want the people I cannot have. I don't accept the things I cannot change. I am weak. I am meak. I am less than a person. Not meant for these things that happen. Not good enough for life. Too afraid of death. Tell me, does it all make sense? In one way or another, is there something? I am a silly girl with so much more to ( Read more... )

I have really become scared of my little smoking problem. A friend of mine has emphysema and he is only 15. I am hoping that that won't happen to me. I have been sick lately... He made me want to cry. My best friend, Josh, is in love with me. I feel very sad about this. I wish he didn't, but I can't control his emotions. I can barely even control ( Read more... )

Things have been going fairly well. I have been feeding my new addiction to Myspace. I know that I have betrayed LiveJournal. :( Sorry. Jackie is waaaaaay out of the picture now. I used to be sad about it, but I realize now that I just don't care anymore. I will find someone someday, and when that happens, well, I don't know what I'll do. I just ( Read more... )

Ok...update on my life. i was dating a girl, but not anymore. i'm happier than what i was. all the girls want me. YAY!!! Jackie and I are not talking I guess, and it kills me. she just doesn't care like she used to. oh well. that's life i guess. i still care abt her tho, that kills me 2.:( i'll get over it somehow. ill try 2 talk 2 her 1 more time ( Read more... )

Today has been pretty shitty, but you know life. I am so confused about everything lately, especially Jackie. I just don't understand what she's feeling or why she's feeling it anymore. I care about that girl so fucking much it even shocks me. I worry about her when she doesn't call, I actually care when she's happy and how her day was, I smile ( Read more... )

Your Power Color Is Magenta
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im really into this girl. she's very pretty and so funny. i told her that i like her 2day when me, her, and my sister jamie all went 2 camden park. my exact words were, "this is a secret between u and me..ok? I want u." she laughed and said, "u wanna kno a secret between just us as well? I want u 2." i was so psyched. the rest of the night we ( Read more... )

I got highlights....pix r coming soon!!! lol. 2day has been ok. my friend matt is pissed at me b/c a girl he liked asked me out. lol. This is the 2nd time too. I dont kno what I'm going 2 say 2 her tho. I'm going 2 have 2 talk 2 jackie abt it. Even if I did like her...she doesnt really compare 2 jackie, but im still unsure b/c i dont wanna hurt ( Read more... )

The Keys to Your Heart
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I went to my step-brother's b-day 2day. He got a crap load of stuff and still hasn't played with it. I went back 2 vinson by the way. A bunch of girls seem interested in me now. *happy* Too bad I don't like any of those bitches tho. I wish I did have somebody. All I have right now is a phone and a voice. And it sux big hairy ones. (Not really. That ( Read more... )