i feel like i have too much on my mind. when i'm left alone with my thoughts sometimes i find it hard to breathe. so much to do...to remember ( Read more... )

drama found me again. at least it's drama that only concerns me. and surprisingly enough i don't want to talk to ANYONE about it. hearing people opinions and advice makes me want to do just the opposite even more ( Read more... )

low: right now

high: going to the gym

low: right now...having to go to bed and feeling a little like i'm gonna throw up...

high: watching true blood for the first time!!!! realizing that my fetish hasn't gone away...HE just made it dormant cause he didn't know how to play.

from now on my posts will simply be my high and low from the day. sick of actually writing.

low: watching that damn movie "love happens" that mom told me to watch, and it getting me emo

high: building and hitting things in the stock room...and getting paid for it.

I AM SO SICK OF MAKING ART. shit.

i can't shake thoughts of the past today. i'm afraid that my memories will soon disappear. they feel like dreams or compulsive lies. i don't even believe myself when i flashback. but then i'll find something, shoes...a t-shirt...keys...it's weird to touch things that are proof. every time i try and cleanse my soul of everything bad i turn my back ( Read more... )

at work i'm my happiest ( Read more... )

well all the extreme and fake has faded and i'm left with something amazing. me. it's like sept. 8th i went to sleep this stranger, and lately i've woken up again dazed and confused...and realizing it's all been a bad dream. a very very bad dream. so let me introduce myself ( Read more... )

so i've had a pretty good couple of days. either it's sex or alcohol that makes me get through life easier. maybe a combo of the two? who knows. but i'm finding out that i like waking up in the morning and idk i'm just enjoying life a lot more. maybe it was the tattoo. my daily reminder. who the fuck knows. could just be the end of the semester. so ( Read more... )