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How is it some people can get inside my head?
So, I have been bouncing an idea around for quite awhile now. Off and on since Greg and I split up. Then last night Aly starts trying to talk me into what I was already thinking about. I did some research today, I am still as always on the fence though. Still going to go on with my original plan to go to Kentucky. I figure I have until new ( Read more... ) -
So here goes nothing....
I don't know what the fuck I am doing. I know I am looking forward to it though it is going to be good for me to be back around the people I know and care about. Who also care about me. I am excited, actually I cannot wait. Everyone around here thinks I am nuts for wanting to go to Kentucky, but that is because they don't have my history there ( Read more... ) -
So fucking angry
I don't get it nothing is right with these two. I say I am going to come back but I doubt it. He is way to stuck at a wrong age on what Mommy and Daddy say fuck that not again. I said south dakota but I kind of doubt it. I am going to vanish. The hatred runs deep right now. Isolated is how they all mean to keep me. I am not permited to be my ( Read more... ) -
Interesting?
So last night was strange and confusing. I sat up until almost four in the morning IMing Jason. Not unusual but trading porn links was. I have been in a bit of a daze all day because of it too. I just don't know how to wrap my mind around that whole business. He never fails to confuse me. While I am talking to him I get this sense of safety ( Read more... ) -
Introspective
To contemplate ones place in the world... Your friends say alot about you and I don't know if I like what that says about me. Codependent, alcoholic, needy. What does that make me? I miss certain people in my life desperately and I don't know how to get back to them in a way I can deal with. I don't want to be in the place I am now emotionally ( Read more... ) -
It's been years
So it's been years and years since last I updated this thing and so much and yet so little have happened in the intervening time. I have grown and aged and learned. I have been married again I have two kids now in fact my youngest will be a year old here in just a few weeks. His father and I of course aren't together any longer. Big bloody ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
So I'm bored and I'm lonely as hell there is no one here I really connect with. All I do is work and as much as I would like to change that it really seems like to much effort. I think I am going to recluse myself even more soon my brother is the shit but him and bootylegger are driving me fuckin nuts. I don't know and I don't think I ever have ( Read more... ) -
and well....
So I am still up to my eyeballs in what the fuck. I work for an excavating company now maintaining their fleet. I am trying to get a house but it's sounding shady as fuck. I'm pretty lonely but I think it is for the best. I don't know what to do in a relationship anymore. Maybe one day I will figure it out until then who knows..... -
fuckety fuck fuck
Well I got fired from dodge, I am now working at firestone in ft. myers. gonna move back there soon. bought a new car, a little red korean thing. life is moving on just hopefully not without me. and as my final closing though i am getting too old for this shit i feel like ass, this weekend i did 4 grams of coke, 2 hits of x, 2 trips of salvia, ( Read more... )