i'm trying not to kill myself

Mom and I had a fight and she said she wanted me out of her life. I slammed the door in her face. I went to my room and stared out the window. I found a nail and made my wrist red. I lit a cigarette in her kitchen from a pack I bought in Florence and went outside. I sat on the rail with listening to Scar Tissue over and over, staring into the ( Read more... )

yo chylds

vodka for breakfast
smoke for lunch [various]
percocet, mescallin, salvia, excedrin, melatonin and light rays for supper
"and for dessert: depression with a side of suicidal tendencies"

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fuck that

i've been listening to coldplay and crying under big sunglasses under bridges ( Read more... )

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i had something like a stroke.

iàm in rome

i had to leave g yesterday.

i feel so bad.

this past month has really changed me. it's been five weeks since i was in my house. i feel like i've learned a lot and i feel good. i think i've changed quite a bit. now we cry in eachother's arms for hours and then we smoke and we smell fabulous and we keep doing this. i leave tomorrow but i still won't be back at home for weeks and weeks. i feel ( Read more... )