Fuck everything

I find nostalgia in a song
it reminds me of things
im told that
i should be more lively
and i look to the sky
for inspiration
and i sigh
because its just to high
to see the path
and to hear the words
i feel the music playing
but i feel no pain
but i can sense it coming
closing
ending

i can see it forming all around me
like a pool of water
reflecting back at me
what i see
is what i want
and thats all i see
all i see
is summed up
in just one word

This suffocating feeling ( Read more... )

i feel like a light bulb. only bright if u turn me on or someones around. i dont know seemingly vacant, things are very different now. I feel possesed, i spend to much time waiting.

i have ridden my self of my past and kept only what i thought worth it

someone once said to me: I'm surprised you can smile that big. Your a person who hurts so much inside and so bad, but you grin and bear the pain.

Sit and wonder, what is meant to be and what of that is what i want to be. Such beautiful eyes staring at me or maybe just this vacant world in search for a someone or maybe for her someone already around. Just one look at her and i was hooked on her, the way i feel it isnt just a crush, i wish i could get to know her to be with her. Never had i ( Read more... )

Well i always thought these things were gay and well yea they are live journal is a self defeating statement its like if u yell it out loud ull explode. Well i think ill do this because it would be a good way to express my stupid. starting with the fact that i am tired and im going to sleep now that i have a chance to sleep and i should use it.