...this is killing me more than it is you...

...trust me...

i'm sick.
from stress.
it's been so long since that happened.
feel proud!
only YOU can bring me to that point.

all these things i hate.
wow.

i want to stand for something,
so i don't fall for everything.

...knock me out again.
I wanna feel her kiss just CRUSH me...

maybe i'm trying to hard.
but if i don't try this hard, i'm looked down on.
either way, it seems to be a no-win for me.

i don't understand.

'your genetic flaws,' i say,
'say  it all, you can't decipher reflections from reality...
but neither can i...'

what do you do
when you're life's a disaster,
and you're moving faster,
and it's getting harder to breathe?
what do you say
to someone who's right, but
you disagree, even if it's
the truth?

I keep doing this.
UGH.
Someone hit me, cause hitting myself isn't enough to get through to me.
Damn reconstruction.
Time for more rewiring.
I'm my own personal mechanic.
Awesome.
I need to draw, or write poems.
Cause I'm that emo.

...UGH.

Operation Rewiring has begun.
I took a big step just now...so I know I am capable...
Trying to find apartments...which means I need a reliable, full-time job.
Soon or later...I can do college...it will just take longer than I'd like. Ah well. As long as I get it done.

Dear Pride,
Goodbye.
*bang bang*

This will all make sense when it falls into place.
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there's kids playing guns in the street
and one's pointing his tree branch at me
so i put my hands up, i said,
'enough is enough, if you walk away, i'll walk away'
and he shot me dead.

I need a new job...Brookshires sucks ass now. I think they're being discriminatory, but there is no real way to prove it. So...meh. I'm looking around for a better, OPEN-MINDED place. Fuck that.
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