as a sociology major i have to double major.

after giving it months of thought.
i never thought i'd ever say this,
but i think i want to teach.

i miss a shitload of people.
even the ones i don't even really like.

i just want to go home.
my real home.
27 days.

i spent my weekend with only one person.
the only person i want to spend my weekends with.
and i loved every single minute of it.

its been three months and nothing has changed.
its a god damn miracle.

i'm not sure what i'm going to do in life.

and as much as everyone gives me a hard time about it, i don't think there is any rush.

what is most important to me is becoming the best person i can be.
and i actually really like who i'm turning into.
i'm understand and comprehending things on a completely different level.
and i am appreciating the constant ( Read more... )

take a risk.
do something you would never do.

only then do we learn anything about ourselves.

i just don't want to die without a few scars.

if there is one thing i've learned from
watching, listening, feeling, learning, participating..

love,
love changes everything.

has completely changed over the past couple of months
a new, enlightened vision.
what was once important now means nothing.

i wish everyone could see what i see.
i want you to understand.

our priorities are all fucked up.
our racisims, our discriminations are completely unnecessary.
but you and i make them unavoidable.
and we can't function without them.
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things are looking up.

yesterday was the nicest day i've seen in months.
and it was so good for me, i needed the fresh air.

and even more importantly i think i know what i want to do with my life.

i  know what i need.

i need a good show with a good band, where i know all the words
and i can just scream along with them

i need some rejuvenation. 
i need to be brought back to life.
i need a new routine.
i need the spring.

i really fucked up.

i hope not too badly.
goddamnit.