winter always does this to me.
its not depression, just self reflection

its just that time of year, where i need to look at where i'm at
where i want to go, and how to do it.

and then act on it.

hop you're doing well.

my seven year old cousin died today of cancer,

it makes me hate a god that would let a child suffer like that for years.
and i wish so desperately i could make it to her funeral.

so tuesday is the tegan and sara show.
but i got tickets for the jenny lewis show the same night, haha.

it'll be great. and i've never seen jenny.

this past weekend was amazing.
ha, thats all.

i really love nashville ( Read more... )

i believe it is time to stop molding God to fit our values and beliefs.
because then what are you worshiping? yourself.

let me go by only what jesus says.
and not what i say and not what you say.

i think this is the most profound enlightenment i've had in awhile,

i am well on my way to being completely on my own.
and it feels amazing.

amazing not to need mom or dad anymore.

i can see now.
but i hate what i see.

i look forward to quitting my job.
i look forward to moving back to nashville
i look forward to being with my friends again
i look forward to doing what i love.

most importantly, i'm looking forward.
and i'm actually a little nervous.
but i know why.

i feel like i need more ink.

end of story.

"forgive your enemies, it messes with their heads"

i saw this on a church sign passing by today
what kind of bullshit is that?

don't forgive anyone because its the right thing to do,
do it only out of spite in hopes it might fuck their head up.
thats what your god wants, i'm sure of it.