hows this for an update............

[hillaryspear]

so, lately... all ive been able to think about is how bad i want to get back to where i was when i was with james...
and by that, i dont mean with someone like james, i mean i miss having someone there for me all the time, someone i could call when i had a bad day, someone who would be here in a minute if i were sick to take care of me, and just

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[cuddlethecows]

What you had with James was habitual. It was something you grew to love and got used to and when it ended you had nothing there.. and yeah, I did see you start to fade into something negative.. as you stated. But I'm very proud that you're getting yourself back on your feet and pulling it all together. (By the way I never judged you for any of the phases you went through, and I still love you with all my heart

[hillaryspear]

brook, i love you, you'll always be one of my best friends. seriously.

and yeah i agree, i guess he actually sorta ended it tonight.. but idk. its whatever. im sad... i got attached. happens.

but i've pretty much found myself over the past year or so.. i dont really hangout anymore, i just kinda keep to myself and hang out with my best friend. i just want a boyfriend so i can feel less.... empty i guess. but once i move i think i'll be ok.