ok so i havent updated this in forever, but upon request, im doing so ( Read more... )

so, lately... all ive been able to think about is how bad i want to get back to where i was when i was with james...
and by that, i dont mean with someone like james, i mean i miss having someone there for me all the time, someone i could call when i had a bad day, someone who would be here in a minute if i were sick to take care of me, and just ( Read more... )

 
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 i miss steven.

 talk about being stabbed in the back...

this week is the worst week of my life. ive lost so many people its unbelievable.

but thats what you get when you're me right? this shit happens to often.

maybe this time i need to change instead of blaming other people.

can someone tell me what the past 17 years of my life has been leading up to? because i honostly have no idea.

im sick of feeling inadequate.. i wanna feel like ive done something with my life other than drop out of highschool, graduate through adult ed. and a lot of drugs. 

do guys always seem to have to have more and more and more ( Read more... )

PLEASE TELL ME THE POINT OF TALKING TO SOMEONE IF YOU'RE ALREADY FIGHTING EVERY MINUTE OF  EVERY DAY ( Read more... )

who are you to judge the life i live? i know im not perfect, and i dont live to be... but before you start pointing fingers make sure your hands are clean ( Read more... )

crying for no reason..
being lonely as fuck..
sleeping all day long..
not leaving my bedroom..

starting to sound like the old hillary.
someone shoot me in the face
im so incredibly depressed is makes me sick.