It is interesting to look back and see how things changed over the years.  I have someone new in my life.  She is an amazing woman.  She loves me, and I love her, and things seem to be going really great.  Her name is Melissa, and we met on match.com.  She does some of the cutest things I have ever seen, and they really make me smile.  I am not in ( Read more... )

Today I watched a few movies.  You try to connect the dots and tell me what they have in common.

1. Dirty Dancing

2. Star Wars Episode III

3. The Break Up

4. Cruel Intentions

That is all I am allowed to say. 

Tonight as I walked into the kitchen I experienced the truth behind scent being the strongest sense tied to memory.  I could smell the bleach mixing with the hot water in the washing machine.  I was instantly transported to the hot tub with April.  All the times we spent in the hot tub, talking late, having drinks, making love.  She loved that.  I ( Read more... )

There is so much I want to say, but then again I can't. I'm missing my best friend (I think she misses me too, but who really knows?).  I hate hiding myself, and hiding the truth.  I'm very tired of things.  I try to do it right, but maybe I don't know what right is.  This is such a high point in my life to lose someone so close.

People around me ( Read more... )

So tonight was all right I guess.  I worked out really heard, which always makes me feel good.  I’m getting used to being alone more as time goes by.  I feel as if I need to make some changes in order to branch out and meet new people.

Things with April are extremely confusing.  I feel as if I am being lead on most of the time.  I am tired of ( Read more... )

So things have changed a lot since my last entry. I am much more comfortable with my current situation (most of the time) but then there are times like these where I start to second guess myself. I am not sure if I am making the right choices. I met a girl a few weeks ago, and she has made me see somet things I didn't see before. Most of all, ( Read more... )

So today my sister had her daughter, Olivia. She was born at 11:30 AM this morning weighing 7 Ibs and 3 ounces. I am so happy for her and Todd. They have, what I consider, the perfect family. I feel like I am being selfish, but part of me feels sad, because I worry I wont get to have the family I always dreamed of. April seemed excited for me ( Read more... )

It's about time I pour my heart out in my journal. I have not writen in here in over a year, and it's hard to believe how much has happened since then. I don't really feel like updating on all of that; I just want to get to the heart of the matter ( Read more... )

My God, it has been forever, hasn't it? Mike reminded me that I never write in here anymore, so I thought a quick update was in order. My rents are gone until mid week next week, and it has been great. We had a rockin get together last weekend, and I was very drunk by the end. Mike was there, and he helped me rock the night away. School is ( Read more... )

Tonight was tiring! I forgot how shitty it can be to close the restaurant. I hate having to do other people’s work, because they are lazy asses; however, it was fun hanging out with my managers for a while. They invited me to this open bowling thing tomorrow at Brighton Bowl, because a new league is starting. I think I might go, but it depends ( Read more... )