Do long term relationships scare anyone else? I mean you're givng your heart, soul, body, and mind over to this person. I'm not saying you lose your individuality or anything, you're just very vulnerable. That really really scares me. Doesn't seem to bug many other people though, at least not as much as it does me. I feel bad for my boyfriends, ( Read more... )

Heehee, I got roses. It was my one year anniversary with Justin yesterday. And guess what! I actually remembered it! I was happy. I got home from Speech and Debate and he walks in a dozen red roses (cliche but too bad, there's a good reason for that clishe: it wonderful) and a present. I got a purse which I've needed for a long time. For ( Read more... )

Had an insane weekend. Friday was me not doing anything cause I've been sick and my parents told me to sleep and then ensureed I did through the wonder of night time cough syrup. Saturday was a whirlwind though. Had dance, and peoples got ready at my house. So I had to clean my room and my house, do all the regular chores, and I dyed my hair ( ( Read more... )

yeah, it's amazing how worked up people can get. They get all amped and try to go and do the right thing, then not 5 minutes later, they've lost all momentum. People have tried to convert me, tried to change me, tried to manitpulate me, and have beseached me to find the error in my ways. They themselves, who have the conviction to want this ( Read more... )

So then. It's raining. I like the rain. I'm not out in the rain. It's making things difficult on others. I'm angry. I don't like being angry. I'm sick. I have a tournament tomorrow. My dad might not let me go. I want to see my boyfriend this weekend. that doesn't look like it will happen. I was supposed to see him today, but that feel ( Read more... )

Yeah so I'm sitting here at wheteve time it is contemplating my reality as I feel my heart beat lose all rythem. Kinda disconserting to feel you're heart do that, but I've gotten used to it. I'm very dependant on other people, I don't like that. I want to be able to take the day off from every one and everything. Spent a half hour in my room ( Read more... )

haven't really had much to say of late. Went over to County Naturals, I was right, it didn't have ground willow bark; hover it did hsve cypris oil. Had fun in english class the other day. I showed up my english teacher by scoring higher than she did on a SAT pre-test. Nothing like gianing the loathing animosity of a middle aged valley girl ( Read more... )

Well that's just not a good feeling. Post making a few friends mad at me I figured out my GPA. Wish I hadn't. The absolute best i can hope for it is like 3.15 ish. I should have had a 3.5 if I didn't want to be grounded. I'm not happy. I wanna call some one and talk, but I don't have any one to call. Carol's off and I've bugged her enough of ( Read more... )

I hate it when you're sitting there and don't want to be angry, but you are. And you really don't want to admit to it, but you feel like you could scream out of frustration. I'm just about threw with being pataint and close to just letting myself scream. It's not like I'm all that upset persay. I'm just not in a pariant mood and i wanna let ( Read more... )