I wish I knew how to stop this pain in my chest

[hippiechickii7]

I wish that I could stop from feeling ugly, fat and stupid everytime I am near him. I wish that everytime I got sad I didnt want to kill myself. I wish that he actually cared about me sometime instead of just himself. I wish that I could walk away but you know me, I stay longer to punish myself

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I called you today...

[pwrpufgrl]

Steph told me about the guy that used to own Storytellers and honey I'm so sorry. I wish I could give you the answers to all the questions you asked but I can't. We get stuck in some sort of drama or another at the same time and neither one of us knows what to do. I want you to be happy and you know this and I hope that you always will. If he isn't making you happy don't be with him. I know it's not that simple but I hardly ever hear from you anymore and when I do talk to you I feel like I'm almost like backround noise cause you are with him and he is taking all of your attention. It's hard sometimes but I don't give up that is why I still call you. I called on Thanksgiving hoping you would be with your family and we could really talk. I guess you weren't. I love you so much please we need to stop playing phone tag. I have Monday and Tuesday off. I'll call you, please make at least 5 mins for me if you can. I miss you...

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[catchastar811]

it never gets that bad to just end your life...it will be over before you knnow it and in that time u have to realize that it is better to love yourself and be alone then to hate yourself and be with someone who treats u like shit! i wish i could shake the shit out of you right now because everyone else can see that your an amazing person who just needs to forgive yourself and make yourself realize u deserved life not death that day! don't scare me ... I CARE and u know that and u know that other ppl ... be with us ... hang with us talk to us instead of that fuck of a boyfriend u have!

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[hippiechickii7]

Thanks steph. I am sorry that I posted something like this because I was just really sad because Roger died and Im just under a lot of stress. EVerything is going a hell of a lot better with me and him. I just need to relax sometimes and think about everything before I react to it. I miss you.