yesterday:

1/2 cup of homemade chicken salad - about 300 cals.
one granola bar - 150 cals
handful of chips - 100 cals

total - 550 cals

yay! and i didn't have any soda at all. cause i'm awesome.

so i've deicded what i need to do is to set myself some goals and boundaries. i have a tendancy to say "I'm going on a diet" and then just charge in with no plan or anything and i always fall off the wagon. always. i think it's going to be easier for me to keep track of shit now too, since alex and i finally got a new computer so i don't have to ( Read more... )

i hate thanksgiving. i can't get away with not eating because i'm at my fiance's parents' house and they notice those kids of things. i'm not going to be able to eat for the next week thanks to this.

one day has ruined my entire month. fuck. i had been doing really good the last week too. damn.

the internet's been down all week. it sucks ( Read more... )

i don't even want to talk about what i ate in the last two days. but i started my period yesterday, which i think is why i've been having trouble not eating a lot of shit. i always do this. but it just means i'll have to try harder ( Read more... )

the rest of yesterday ( Read more... )

9 saltines - 117 cal.
1/2 can tuna - 50 cal.
1 1/2 Tbsp. mayo - 60 cal.
1/2 harb boiled egg white - about 10 cal.
cup of apple juice - 130 cal.

TOTAL - 367 (give or take)

I feel okay about this. not super, but okay. Okay is good.

so...i'm back. the road is a long story i prefer not to tell.

alex and i are engaged.

i'm hugely fat. i weighed myself the other day. 137.5.

this is the heaviest i've been since i was 14. i'm losing my shit. seriously.

but i gained a shit load of weight and am slowly getting rid of it. i lost 3 pounds in two days. yay!

oh god. ohgodohgodohgod ( Read more... )