i've lost 20 pound since december. it's not enough. i'm only 5'4. 125 still looks huge on me. 110. i'll get to 110 or die trying.

so the apples were getting really soft and were about to turn. so i made apple pancakes. two dozen apple pancakes. with cinnmon and brown sugar butter. and of course i had to have one, to make sure they came out okay. so i had another. and another.

ugh.

so, i'm unemployed. again. and it sucks because the shoe store has a pair of really cute boots on sale for like, $15 and i know that's really cheap but i just can't justify it. damn ( Read more... )

i got fired today ( Read more... )

i hate christmas. i really, really do.

but alex's mom got me a cute hat. so i guess it's not a total waste.

ugh. i was sick yesterday. beandon got a nasty stomach flu a few days ago, and i got it yesterday. it was kind of nice though, because i didn't feel bad eating because i knew i wasn't going to be able to keep it down.

my leg stopped hurting, but now my back is all fucked up. i love how if it's not one thing, it's another.

apparently the pain in my leg is ciatica. (thanks, WebMD ( Read more... )

i'm going out of my mind ( Read more... )

i dont even want to talk about food right now. i'm having leg and hip issues and am in so much pain i can't even think straight.

ugh, i wish i could afford to go to the doctor. fuck all you people with health insurance. you have no idea how lucky you are.

for some reason i can't remember anything i ate yesterday. i know i ate. i just can't remember what. it's driving me nuts ( Read more... )