Im starting to think that i am just not meant to have a relationship...im almost 21 years old and I have yet to have a truly meaningful romantic relationship...they have all evolved around sex...on some level...and frankly i deserve a fuck load more than that. I am not perfect...i know that...and if i were...id be married to brad pitt. based on ( Read more... )

ok so i believe that in a friendship, each person is supposed to make an equal amount of effort to maintain the relationship. I have come to realize most of my relationships require me making most of the effort. If i dont call no one calls, if i dont say something to you on aim, pretty much no one says anything first. I am always the one who has to ( Read more... )

fuck my stupid heart

Things are overwhelming me so much right now ( Read more... )

So this coming week is my last day working at the temple! It was a good experience but it just became overly redundant so its good timing that i am going off to college. I met an amazing woman who i respect and love dearly and i will miss her, our relationship is very strong so i know we will keep in contact while im at school ( Read more... )

Life is constantly challenging me. Not to the full extent of some. But i have most certainly been faced with a number of challenges lately. I guess it is/was a test to see how much i've grown and to see how i can handle them. as much as i dislike it, I know it is a learning experience that teaches me more about the things i need to know ( Read more... )

Summer is here yet again. Fuck working everyday of the week. Fortunatly for me my hours are getting cut in half because im not needed as much over the summer therefore I have more time with my friends and stuff before i go away to college yet again. Its only 50 minutes away but I will be on my own again regardless so that excites me. Im a different ( Read more... )

Well, Right now i am on the best diet ive ever been on. I have lost 5 pounds in about a week and a half. Im proud of myself. I am still not close to being satisfied but i know that i will get there. And i cant be more happy. Work is work. school is school. Ive been hanging out with some really great people lately. The kind of people who think about ( Read more... )

super duper

Take a deep breath, it will work out, no it cant because it never does. But maybe it will. People who are lonely sit talking to no one, imagining things that dont exist wanting but not wanting. I dont know what i want anymore she says. What i dont want is this. Im fed up with it she says. Im tired of pulling this string she says. I am tired of you ( Read more... )