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Deployment
Well this is our first Long deployment. We are on day 4 So far it isnt that bad. I finally got my first email today. That put me on cloud 9 for the day. I just wish this deployment didnt have to start right now. we are going thru so much in our lives it is hard to be away from. My grndmother passed away then my other grandmother passed away then I ( Read more... ) -
My Turn
As long as I can remember I have always put others before me. It has never bothered me I liked helping people. But for the past year everyone I know has gotten pregnant even when they didnt want to be. Ive been happy for them. Even tho it hurt me so bad I would go baby shopping with them. Cause they didnt have anyone to go with them. Going to a ( Read more... ) -
Done with it all!
I have come to the conclusion that It was never meant for me to be a mom. I feel Like I am being punished for something and I dont know what it is. I want to be a mom so bad. This breaks my heart to no end, I always felt as a child that I was meant to be a wife and mother. But I Guess I was wrong. I guess I was not meant to raise a child. Am I that ( Read more... ) -
Just a update
Well we did our round of clomid. We went to the doctor and and the ultrasound done. I had 1 egg and it was only 12mm so I wasnt able to get the trigger shot. The doctor said there is still a chance we can get pregnant with out the shot. So we still have hope for this month. He said if we dont get pregnant this month he will up the dose to 150mg of ( Read more... ) -
Gods will.
I took provera for 5 days and waited 7 days got my period yesterday. (bad cramps to) I start my clomidon sunday then finish on thursday then the next monday I am suppose to go to the doctor for my follical study. But my luck my doctor has now decided that he doesnt want to work on mondays. So now I have to wait till tuesday the 30th for my study. ( Read more... ) -
Lost another Option.
Well today me and Noel did some figuring and we are unable to afford IVF. I tried to find clinical trials in my area but had no luck. UGH. So now we are back to the drawing board. ANYONE got any ideas I am open to them all. We are going to move in July to a 2 bedroom apartment so that we can get foster license and try and adopt thru the foster ( Read more... ) -
My trip to the ER
I went to the Er last night. I was having these horrible pains in my stomach and lower back. They ran blood work and urine and did an ultrasound and NOTHING. so they take a freaking guess and what could be wrong. Send me home with painkillers. I swear I hate the doctors up here. They have no clue what they are doing. I am still in pain, I was told ( Read more... ) -
Just an update
Well my sister is 6 weeks from her due date. I am happy for her but still a little jealous. I want a baby so bad and it just seems to not be happening. We cant afford adoption or IVF. I have known since i was a little girl i was meant to be a mommy. I decided to wait till I was married and stable to try for a baby. And now it seems that it just ( Read more... ) -
My panda bear
Well for the past week My dog has been very sick. Vomiting the runs not eating not drinking and when she does drink she throws it right back up. Today we took her to the vet and spent over 300 bucks getting her meds and stuff. I am so worried about her. We spent all our money on that now I will have no food for us till the 15th which is fine as ( Read more... )