so most don't know this in fact no one does but my best friends and my partner. we have decided to stop trying to not conceive. after loosing a child it really makes you see what you are missing. I have wanted a child since I had my first miscarriage at 2.5 weeks when I was 17 years old but I was able to grow past it and learn to live a normal life ( Read more... )

sorry its been a while ive been busy with Christmas stuff with family and learning to get through a major holiday without my child... and as the first big holiday since ( outside of thanksgiving but that is a weird holiday for me as it is). id like to say I was strong and I stood my ground and I didn't break but I cant I managed to make it through ( Read more... )

silence... that has to be one of the hardest parts of trying to heal and find a new kind of normal after loosing a child. the silence of your house is haunting it should be filled with laughter and a baby crying and joy and instead you come home to a clean home free of kids messes and crushed with the realization that your child will never run ( Read more... )

ok so im not exactly sure why im writing this and please excuse all the grammatical errors im sure are going to follow but I guess I just needed a way to release some pain and frustration so this is how im gonna try and do it. I have no clue how to start this so ill just start from the moment I found out I was a real mother. hold on im at work and ( Read more... )