~wow. ok how long has it been since i've been here? i'm far too much of a myspace whore nowadays.. ha.. but it's so much FUN ( Read more... )

"..said i don't know if i've ever been good enough..
i'm a little bit rusty and i think my head is caving in..
said i don't know if i've ever been really loved, by a hand that's touched me..
and i feel like something's going to give and i'm a little bit angry..
well, this ain't over.. not not here..
not while i still need you around.."

~so i haven' ( Read more... )

~so much information and not nearly enough strength or energy to sort it out or make it make sense ( Read more... )

~so ya know what i decided would be a magnificent way to live? in a moderately sized motor home.. travelling from place to place.. getting small jobs to make money and moving on.. living in a camper, kind of roughing it.. the life of a gypsy.. how amazing.. so FREE.. you could do whatever you wanted.. see all the things you want.. experience things ( Read more... )

~i don't even know why i attempt to update this thing.. nothing ever happens to me.. ha ( Read more... )

~i feel as though i'm backsliding.. everytime i feel like i'm ok, and that things are going to get better, something else happens.. something else reawakens the truth in me.. i wake up from terrible nightmares and i feel shakey and disoriented.. or i wake from beautiful dreams and feel just as lost as if it'd been the other.. memories flood my mind ( Read more... )

~ok, so i think i have decided that 2006 is one blow hole of a year.. seriously.. how many bad things can happen in the first month or so of a year to make you want to crawl out of your skin and disect your own brain?? i mean sheesh.. first off like, 3 people died that were close to people i love very much.. than my boyfriend, the best thing to ( Read more... )

~wow, so i haven't left my house since sunday morning.. sad.. but see, my phone decided to break on sunday and so i haven't been able to call anyone, or get calls and so yeah.. i just haven't felt much like running out and trying to find something to do.. especially since i dont get paid until tomorrow and gas is limited.. bleh ( Read more... )

~so yeah.. i havent updated in awhile.. owell, so i'm slightly sad and pathetic.. ha ( Read more... )

~so what do you do when your heart is telling you something.. and it's so strong and so loud that it literally reverberates throughout your entire body and being? most of the people i have come to know and love agree with the "follow your heart" saying.. because it's always your head that gets you in trouble.. you start THINKING too much and you ( Read more... )