Last night my dad, my boyfriend, and I were standing in the kitchen. My dad was showing us how he put new calking all around the sink, and told me not to use the sink or get the area wet.  The notoriety of my avoidance of doing dishes caused my boyfriend to remark sarcastically "that shouldn't be a problem", to which my dad started cracking up and ( Read more... )

i can't even put into words how petty i am sometimes.
i'm just really jealous, what am i supposed to do about that?
i dont know
im going to massachusetts tomorrow. with casey. and i'm nervous about flying.

when i used to feel this way ( Read more... )

it is finally real when you write about it.

it is a strange thing
to watch yourself morph,
into something that you never really thought you'd be,
something that you've always made fun of.
it's pathetic.
and i hate myself for it.
this month has been full of shit.
bad cars,
too little money,
too much money,
pain,
fleas,
silly fights,
and the like.
but there's something else.
adoption,
my little furry child,
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i feel just like a satellite in orbit ( Read more... )

it was hilarious,
a confrontational conversation,
made completely in jest.
on my part at least.
bitch,
i said,
bitch,
don't ever talk to my boyfriend again.
or i'll beat your fucking face in.
people are so touchy,
honestly.

there is a place ( Read more... )

i feel like i'm always ( Read more... )

1:02 AM
and i can't sleep.
one arm can, but the rest of me,
well no.
heavy with the weight of death,
that one bad arm tingles
all the way from the bathroom
to the kitchen,
and when i touch the door handle
its like seven different string rays
attacking the same limb
in some sadistic harmony.
but i want something.
cheerios and milk.
ice water.
something to ( Read more... )