yeah, i would have posted this a day ago, but i'm just too lazy, not that anyone checks this anyways. after a LOT of thinking, i decided that i'm going to stay right where i am, least till something better comes along. if i had moved to chicago now, i would have next to no money, and we all know how cool money is. more importantly tho, i don't ( Read more... )

if you have talked to me at all recently, you know that i haven't been the most situated person lately. from mom's house to friends apt, to friends mom's house back home... wtf??? well, i got another plot twist for ya ( Read more... )

i just don't get it anymore. i honestly see no point to any of lifes bullshit, and yet i get so much of it. funny part is, most of this shit doesn't even matter. for instance, i apply for a credit card... i'm 19, and it's about time for me to get a credit history being as i'm definantly going to need it down the road some. i get denied due to " ( Read more... )

after talking to mandy, and doing a lot of thinking, i've decided to move out of her house. her and her mother have been great, and have put up with more than they should. i think it was a compination of me screwing up (i seem to have a talent for that) and us having different standards of living and such. so after a long and intersting talk ( Read more... )

After talkin to a few people last night, i calmed down a bit. i mean, i've been lonely for a while, big surprise right? most of the time it's not too bad, sometimes it is. but when i'm in a messed up mood, and something triggers it like a love story, yeah it can make me go off the deep end, which is what happened last night. i just want to ( Read more... )

I just got finished watching American wedding. I have to say, it wasn't too bad, although defiantly interesting. however, it is right next to Harry met Sally on the "movies not to watch when lonely" list. watching a wedding grow and take place, as twisted as it was, still made me feel pretty depressed, especially at the end when everything came ( Read more... )

ok, wow, it's been a long time huh? well, that's what two jobs and a wad of misc. other things will do to you... kill all free time in the worl ( Read more... )

I’ve known this girl for about 5 or 6 years now. he name's Aly, she lives in California, and she rocks HI ALY!! ok, I’m done. anyways, we've always talked about me goin out there sometime, and have toyed around with the idea for me to be there when she graduates high school. well, she's graduating this summer. I have never actually met Aly in ( Read more... )

I’m starting to notice the whole reading and writing thing isn't working out so much. while I have been at work all this week, I had today off, and nothing but sleep, couch, and gaming. gotta love those lazy days off ( Read more... )

I don't know why, but Joy (my first girlfriend) has been popping in my head lately, and two nights ago I even had a dream about her. I don't know why, and I don't know what it means. Those of you who know of her, or have heard me talking about her, know just how psycho she is. I’m a tad bit frightened...