Over a year since I have posted anything. go figure! Well there is one constant in life and that is change. I changed, the world changed. I am looking at my second attempt at marriage in Jan. I hope this one does not lead to attempted murder and hatred like the last time. I think I am going to hope back in the old IRC room and see how folks are

What a stressful morning work was rough. just a taste of some of the challenges I will get to face ....I wonder if I am being paid enough for this. Anyways I am going to start updating my journal while I am on the road. not like I have much else to do ya know. I gotta find a g/f in every state :P I am looking forward to a few trips imperal CA and ( Read more... )

ok you may start seeing work stuff in here ignore it. but hey I am alive I am kicking I can do this. Child support payments are killing me I can barely keep any money in my account. I have changed alot over the past year I have not been keeping an online journal but something made me think of it so I figured I would check it out and try to start ( Read more... )

Well damn I had the best weekend!!!! THursday I went to a biker bar (ok not like blue oyster type bar). My cousin is a hardcore biker and he has been begging me to go to his bar with him so thursday I did. I walk in there and the entire bar stopped and stared at me (yea I felt my ass cheeks tighten up in case it was that kinda bar) but then my ( Read more... )

Well damn I had the best weekend!!!! THursday I went to a biker bar (ok not like blue oyster type bar). My cousin is a hardcore biker and he has been begging me to go to his bar with him so thursday I did. I walk in there and the entire bar stopped and stared at me (yea I felt my ass cheeks tighten up in case it was that kinda bar) but then my ( Read more... )

broke ties with nikki (she said she was falling in love) eek not allowed right now. but there is still angie, rebecca (she's new, great tattoos), katie, michelle. I'm sure I'll find someone. I need a woman that suprises me who is intellegent and I can connect to at a mental level. (OMG did say that?) WEll still no work GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! f*** it I'm ( Read more... )

what to say life is boring to say best. it rains everyday so I have to fight to get my swim in. legal stuff is getting worse. well welcome to my life. postive points my kids are wonderful. I seem to be getting better at dealing with women other than my ex. I still need a steady job!!!

I should blame Amy for this my A/C is on the fritz now!!! I hope to get it up and running today sometime. All and all things are going. If anyone was watching my web cam last week oops sorry about that. I did not know my cam was on. Well off for another day of swimming and job hunting. I think I'll start looking for a job in Canada!!! heehee any ( Read more... )

Well I just got back from a really exceptial dive. For those who don't know I am an amatur freediver. ok that is I like to hold my breath for as long as I can while submerging myself as deep as I can. since the ocean is a ways away I go to a natural spring near my house. it is crystal clear water that comes directly out of the aquafur in florida. ( Read more... )

well I haven't posted anything for a while I don't know what to say life goes on everyday tumbles over me like a wave in the ocean. There seems no end to the dispear I feel in my heart. I have found that I am still attractive to women but non of them have struck a cord in my heart. last night I got dolled up in my tight wranglers a nice shirt and ( Read more... )