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I still re-call the taste of your tears. Echoing your voice, just like the ringing in my ears. My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore. Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore. I'm down to just one thing, and I'm starting to scare myself ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! ... ugh, actually, I'm not having a birthday this year.

Most days I'm fine with everything thats happened... and others I hate to wake up in the morning... I guess there's only so many days that you can pretend and actually fight off what your true feelings are. I hate to think about my past... I hate to think about Travis, I hate to think about what we had planned, and sometimes I can help it. I'm ( Read more... )

Ohh... I have a story to type tomorrow. Travis's whole fucking family is psychotic! Really fuckin' psychotic! They all need to get the claps and die!


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I didn't go to sleep until about 3:00 and woke up at noon. I'm such a lazy bastard. I need to get out of that mode since I'm starting school again in the fall. (Ack!)... So, I still have a lot of stuff to go through in my room. I put all Travis's stuff in an Abercrombie bag and put it away in my closet. I'm not sure what to do with it yet. The ( Read more... )

and I'm upstairs in my room sorting through everything deciding whether to keep it, throw it away, or sell it. I was fine, until I got to the part of my room that had all of mine and Travis's stuff in it. I shed a few tears, but kept going. Then Evanesence comes on... My Immortal, of course. So, then I look down at my dresser and I see his cologne ( Read more... )

So, tonight after I told Travis I thought it would be best if we never talked again and he asked for the ring back (which need I remind you was a Christmas present)... and I told him I flushed it this morning (which I did)... he told his dad that I had been "threatening to kill him"... so his dad calls my house at 11:00 at night, wakes up my ( Read more... )

Okay so I've decided that Travis and I "working out our problems" will NEVER work...We both depress the hell out of eachother. Even though he says I'll always be a big part of his life and he's never had a friend like me - I don't feel that way. The past 6 years have been hell for me. Our whole relationship was like a 6 year fling... and I hate ( Read more... )

I didn't wake up until noon, took my Wellbutrin, then took another one at 4:00 - and it wore off at 9:00, so I've been feeling all shitty since then. It'a amazing how much it controls your thoughts... like even when I'm thinking about life and how much it sucks, it kind of makes me numb and I can't cry, but as soon as it wears off I'll start ( Read more... )