21 November 2008 @ 12:19 am ( Read more... )

he died, i told myself that this can't affect me, but it did. i took a couple days off of workm but because of chemistry with me and his best friend i can't celebrate his life with his other friends. how selfish can people be. its a day for a great friend who was able to do the right thing all these years, why can't you put that aside and honor ( Read more... )

everyone around me who knows me keeps telling me i should do thing for myself. so i tried. and this is what happened ( Read more... )

if only i could be in the same state at the same time.

parties, more parties, and then parties that spontaneously combust from nothing.

I spent 9k within the last 10 days according to my bank. lol

woot what will this year bring.

I'm not surprised that I'm still with him. Although 2 days ago he imposed a 2 week time away from him. maybe it'll be like stopping smoking, if i can get away from the initial withdrawl pains i can be rid of my need for him sooner. although we've sort of entered into a business relationship that i can't just cut and run from. more so i'd need to ( Read more... )

So its been so long, and my bank statement shows like its been longer. this christmas season had its ups and downs. The ups when seeing people live without touched so, that they cry at christmas dinner, and the downs, hmm, i don't really see any downs. hehe ( Read more... )

my life has been up in the air, and then its been tossed around some more. And since the dust is now settling again, I can be up in the air with less air between me and the ground.

I paid off a bunch of debts, cancelled 35k worth of credit and now i'm on my happy way to becoming a proud owner of a mortgage.

lets see, whats next...

although perceived still makes it hard to ignore ( Read more... )

its been proven time and time again that i make plans with them, well in advance, and every single time, they neglect to tell me their plans with me have changed. as in they are doing shit with others and since i'm sitting at home waiting since 9:30 pm for them to call me at 10pm to do an all nighter hangout with them (ORIGINAL PLANS WERE ALSO I ( Read more... )

even for me ( Read more... )