Comments | ho_damn: The intangible prevails.

ho_damn

The intangible prevails.

Feb 14, 2005 20:35

It feels like my chest is physically being stabbed and destroyed with something sharp and shiny. And it hurts. It hurts in my entire body, my mind ( Read more... )

Comments 18

0broken_inside0 February 15 2005, 05:04:54 UTC

welcome to my life. slightly altered. i am the same way, but no gabbie required.

ho_damn February 15 2005, 05:06:29 UTC

How long have you lived this way?

0broken_inside0 February 15 2005, 05:08:39 UTC

like full-blown i cannot do anything else and ohmygod...
since somewhere earlish last summer. probably before that though. i forget how to work time.

fall3nang3l___x February 15 2005, 05:39:07 UTC

Aww, Joolian.. I love how you write really poetic and nice-ish... it probably helps your pain a lot by being able to express your feelings that way..

fall3nang3l___x February 15 2005, 05:39:27 UTC

btw, i spelled your name like that on purpose.

ho_damn February 15 2005, 05:42:04 UTC

>And I also feel selfish and self involved by portraying my feelings as pain and sadness, etc. Its like, I could be feeling this way, and at the same time living in Africa with AIDS. Now that would be pain. I can't decide how I feel based on how other people feel though, because the only thing I know for sure is whats going on in my head. Well wait, I know nothing about that, but still... I know it better than I know the people in Africa.

Thanks for listening to/reading my blabbering.

fall3nang3l___x February 15 2005, 06:07:43 UTC

Wow, no way, I've made the exact same connection to people in Africa

how we're all spoiled, dirty Marin kids and going "life sucks, i'm gonna kill myself"

and all those kids in Africa don't have anything to even live for, they're not complaining, and they're struggling to stay alive.

what the hell.

Thread 8

something__real February 15 2005, 05:51:29 UTC

julian. i know what you mean. but i'm over it. i am, honestly. and i'm going to stop going out of my way. like the pretty black book. that was a bit over the top.

ho_damn February 15 2005, 05:53:24 UTC

it was nice of you, and you and him are good friends.

please dont say you are over it if you are not.

something__real February 15 2005, 06:33:55 UTC

im over julian.

laurelgl February 15 2005, 15:29:08 UTC

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ho_damn February 16 2005, 00:01:19 UTC

haha thank you laurel.

inthisheart February 16 2005, 00:19:24 UTC

I don't know how many times I've felt the same way.