You make all the good turn to shit.

[ho_damn]

Well, I made myself an icon. It was one of the variations of the valentines I gave out. I feel clever, even though its stupid

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[fall3nang3l___x]

Oh, Julian.. I sort of understand how you feel... however in a different scenario...

but I have a question

Does she know that you like her? Because I find it terribly mean of her to keep talking about him even when she knows..

You shouldn't compare yourself to your friends. "I know that everyone likes my friends better than they like me" I feel the same way, except I like you more than your friends, and what the hell, my friends don't even like ME.

But this isn't about me.

Please feel better, and it'll pass as long as you don't slice yourself to slivers.. if you ever want to talk, which you probably don't, you can always call me, I think you know my number

[ho_damn]

She knows, our friendship kindof died when I told her.

Thank you for the feel-betters, and ew i know i am ranting about this non stop and its self centered, but yeah.

you should even it out and complain about your life. heh

and yeah, i do have your number. very cool.

thank you emily.

[0broken_inside0]

But its exactly what you said, julian. 'I am her best friend and I have to'..and such. This is actually what "bff"'s do; to an extreme extent..
She trusts you a lot, and this is why she tells you all about him. A lot. If you were a chick it would be the same. She thinks of you as A FRIEND, and friends confide in each other. She tells you all about him, which is her way of confiding. she trusts you julian, or she wouldn't be telling you all about it.
BUT since you like her and hate her telling about him a lot, you have to break it off. Its just too fucked up because that's what friends are there for and since you don't like it, well then IT WONT WORK!

obviously..

[ho_damn]

Its weird, I'm okay with her talking to me about it, but she SCREAMS at me when I don't give her the right advice.

I am dwelling on the way it used to be.

[0broken_inside0]

oh by the way because I am a bitch:

"Me: i do give a shit. i know how terrible it feels, i feel like that every day.
Her: you remind me of that constantly"

...It's almost too self-pitying. She wouldn't understand the complexities of your statement, and would assume that you are just emoing. which you kind of are. If you HAVE to pretend to care, cut out the self-pity. No one likes that. And yes, I know that the situation is different but still. You do it a lot.

[ho_damn]

I just always have to remind her because it seems like she forgets that it HURTS ME. And that I HAVE FEELINGS.

Its a reminder that is not taken well.

[0broken_inside0]

she will forget anyways, even when you don't remind her... whore. oops, I didn't say that.

[dontchange__me]

julian. i dont really know what to say. at all. you think im okay with her and all...but julian.

in all seriousness, i really am not. at all. she fucking changed you. fucking made you a different person. dont go chasing after her, i dont think its worth it.

i love you julian and i hate to see you hurting so much.

you fell into her trap.

[0broken_inside0]

you fell into her trap.

roxanne you are so much better at wording than I. I agree with roxanne 110%.

[ho_damn]

i love you roxanne, i gotta figure this out, and it might just take time. my life is ending and ending and its wasting away being sad.

goddammit but it will get better.

[something__real]

is it elliot?

or nathaniel? [because it just sounds like the things you say about him...]

last time it was elliot.

but hey, i wouldn't know.

and julian, if you want to blow your brains out, we can do it together.

[ho_damn]

I have a feeling that we will for the same reason.

And I knew you would guess. And I knew I would not tell you. Because its her secret. But its irrelivant to you, so don't worry.

[something__real]

you're just so great. that i'll die. god damn you.

[ho_damn]

I don't get it...