I wish I had self esteem ( Read more... )

everyone is fucking born and grows up with this happiness, eagerness, and excitement that is completely unaffected by the state of the world or any other outside complication. it's just.. they have this wonder in everything. and it's so naive and childish of them, but it's so fucking.. beautiful. that they can go on like that and see the good ( Read more... )

i am too exhausted to think, but i feel like writing. too exhausted to do that too though ( Read more... )

in order to complete my homework, i had to eat my sister's ADD medication. now i'm awake and my homework is long past done ( Read more... )

FOREWORD: I wrote this when I wasn't in my normal mindset, so that explains some of the strange writing..I really don't know what to write, but seeing as that i feel very introspective and thoughtful, and will probably not be able to fall asleep anyways, I am going to write. Here ( Read more... )

Foreword for clarification: In trying to sleep, I often begin to flashback trip.It is 1:03 and I am awake because I have a phobia of dreams; Oneirophobia. Since my process of going to sleep is usually fucking insane since I start to trip some of the time, I am afraid that my dreams are equally or exceedingly terrifying. When I'm awake but in the ( Read more... )

Clouds of smoke drifting in and out of my door and outside, illuminated by the blue neon lights. Many intoxicated people flowing with the thumping trance music. Best party ever ( Read more... )

what did you do today julian ( Read more... )

I just got yelled at for having incense lit. "I don't want to fucking have to take you to the goddamn hospital in the middle of the night with an asthma attack from all this fucking incense!" *slams door three times, then goes and slams another door and stops away ( Read more... )

first off, i wanted to say that my sister is one of the most shallow, unintelligent people that i have ever met in my life. she spends her time stealing cheap makeup from longs, and watching "my own" and "next". her existence is a waste of space ( Read more... )