why do all of you, minus kristin, have the impression that i haven't considered or that i think i'm too good for in-state schools? i definitely have looked at ALL of my options. UNCG is great, and if i had to stay in-state then that is where i would want to be. the other programs we have in NC for music performance just don't measure up to those that i can find out of state (in places like nyc, pittsburg, cinci, boston, etc..) just because i set my sights high doesn't mean that i look down on my not-so-well-known options. the fact is, i've got big dreams, and i know i'm not alone there because mle and i have talked about our aspirations before. not that it's where i'll end up, but i've never seen a person in a playbill who went to a school that nobody's heard of. like doyle tells us, people from carnegie mellon, ccm, and other such schools have jobs lined up before they even graduate. (to mle) believe me, i know how far away 2 hrs is and it's not far enough...my sister comes home almost every weekend from carolina, and if it's
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i think that it would be great for you to go to any college in the US. i didn't say that i thought that you thought you were too good for an in state college. All that i am saying, is don't get all caught up in the hype of going somewhere big like new york, just to be dragged down if it doesn't happen.
i want to be encouraging and i want to be your friend. i told you that i want us to be friends again. i want things to finally work between us. for things not to be uncomfortable. i want things to be different this coming year, your senior year, than they have been since last october. despite how it may seem, i'm not trying to make you miserable or tell you that you're a failure. i'm also sorry that every time i speak my mind i seem to be saying something that upsets you, like i said that's not my goal.
and i'll say again. like i did before. good luck with whatever comes your way.
you know what. i can't believe i actually...AH! i am not going to give encouragement to every single post that you want pity on. if i did that, you would be depressed. thats what i did to my sister, and it makes me so angry when i have to watch her mope around because she believes her life is miserable. i won't have any part in letting that happen to you. i have yet to hear something that is actually positive in your life. why dont' you focus on that? being happy is not that bad. and maybe i'm pushing for NC colleges because maybe I dont' want you to go so far away? maybe i'd like to see you a couple times....you know? considering we are friends? and maybe i'm just trying to be a bit conversational and reasonable in trying to point out other point of views and ENCOURAGING you to look at all your options so you will be the happiest. i did not once say stop looking at out of state schools did i? I DON'T WANT YOU TO GIVE UP YOUR DREAMS! i just want you to look at all of them carefully! so that you will be happy. if you think for one
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Alrighty thendramaqueentklJuly 24 2005, 05:48:00 UTC
Ryan, you seem to b in a bad mood when you write these posts so you should probably check ur mood before you post. i don't think you need to defend urself so don't worry about that. all of this appears as being taken to seriously on ur part as is reflected in ur response posts. yes ur friends are being mr. reality and not encouraging because they think thats what will help...i'm sure their sorry if they're not helping you. Ryan if you post to vent and you get a negitive response by gosh don't defend it, screw it. post a simple "you misunderstood what i was saying" with a 2 sentence explanation tops and screw it. its just not something you need to waste ur life worrying about, ok, we get ya most of the time ;). anyway, just to b the psycologist, ask yourself some questions.... Why are you so desperate to get away??? Is it family, friends, town size, memories, emotions, opporitunity, education, or do you think you'll "find yourself" in new environment??? But be sure you dig deep down and answer honestly, don't convince yourself
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Re: Alrighty thenadamwennerJuly 25 2005, 20:08:30 UTC
in ryans defense (yes i know, im defending ryan, shocking isnt it), if ryan doesnt post what is generally annonying in his life, he will A: have hardly any easy vent for the frustrations, B: he wont post at all, cause thats how ryan is (and i am too, kinda), and C: if ryan doesnt post about it, but hides his problems, we will all assume that ryan's life is perfect, lets face it, no ones life is perfect, so parading around this false image of perfection of the current workings of ones life does no good to anyone who actually cares about anything he is posting about
therefore I am all for posting things that irritate you
and for the record ryan, i never said you should stay in state, nor is that necessarally my opinion on the matter :-D
i'm going to try and offer an explanation into the initial reaction i had to your first replys to this post. please note that i never thought any of you were TRYING to be DIScouraging
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Re: wow you guys..wendygirl89July 25 2005, 23:25:58 UTC
i'm not your dad, and i never will be. i am not discouraging you from posting vent feelings...but not for my sake, but for yours, maybe you can balance it with a "well this is going good on the bright side". i know you, and your tendency to linger on the bad stuff, and with all your hopes and dreams i don't want that to bring you down. and fyi "i'm not asking you to have pity on me or anything like that i just want you guys to know why it is that i'm feeling down when i am." when we are face to face, you don't let us see when your feeling down. it takes discovering to figure it out. instead of posting it, tell us. obviously being friends over livejournal is not working out. so be friends with us in person. upset? give us a call, come over, im us. and be prepared for a human answer, not just the I love you you want to hear. you know I love you, and if your going to ask for help or a listener, i'm going to do that, but i'm also going to give you my opinion and another point of view, all in the hopes that it will help you. cuz hey
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Re: wow you guys..adamwennerJuly 26 2005, 18:51:48 UTC
i know we dont always see eye on things... and that was kinda both of our faults as we were both in bad moods when we started the whole thing
anyways, being your friend means support of your friends, whatever your decision when it comes to your future, we are always here for you
its kinda the christian philosophy of "love the people, hate the sin", regardless of what you do, how much you piss us off, or how many decisions you make that we dont agree with, we are still your friends
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i want to be encouraging and i want to be your friend. i told you that i want us to be friends again. i want things to finally work between us. for things not to be uncomfortable. i want things to be different this coming year, your senior year, than they have been since last october. despite how it may seem, i'm not trying to make you miserable or tell you that you're a failure. i'm also sorry that every time i speak my mind i seem to be saying something that upsets you, like i said that's not my goal.
and i'll say again. like i did before.
good luck with whatever comes your way.
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therefore I am all for posting things that irritate you
and for the record ryan, i never said you should stay in state, nor is that necessarally my opinion on the matter
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anyways, being your friend means support of your friends, whatever your decision when it comes to your future, we are always here for you
its kinda the christian philosophy of "love the people, hate the sin", regardless of what you do, how much you piss us off, or how many decisions you make that we dont agree with, we are still your friends
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