I did a lot singing and my whole body is sore from it. the aching that four days rest will cure. four days alone without anything. locked up in a basement with the buzz of machines, scanning. the light of the bed washes over them in waves, how they looked one hundred years ago, before they died. and the crashing wave of light, ever so gently makes ( Read more... )

it felt like tour again, but I was a solo project, touring parties and friends houses. wake up still drunk and drive fast with delerium to the next town, getting there and doing it over again ( Read more... )

geez, something about getting what you want can really induce a hangover. as I was sitting there approaching boredom and contentment, I thought to myself, he will walk thru that door right now. and eerily enough, he did. The lines begin to blur now, the clock set for morning, I had a million moments of, getting up to go, walking towards the door, ( Read more... )

waking up today to the bed shaking, the earth moving, but not jolting awake, just kind of lying there, swaying. It's been awhile since I've felt that deep shaking, it was almost comforting ( Read more... )

there is something about criminal activity past five a.m., that really makes me stressed out come seven, even while listening to Mozart in bed. I can't tell you what I did, and I guess it's not that bad, but these days it feels like your always being watched, and I'm half expecting cops to show up at my door any minute. Doing crimes while drunk is ( Read more... )

If there was only anywhere else I'd rather be. I am nothing here, isolated, and bored with myself. I go to all my secret spots alone, and it just seems like stupid dead grass crumbling dried up memories that won't ever be worth showing anyone. I lay in bed four days, there isn't anywhere I should be, no calls come in, I stay still, unmoved, while I ( Read more... )

some people, it seems to me, are just made to find eachother, in the dark, and think it's everything they've been looking for, they fall asleep, satisfied, full ( Read more... )

I can't sleep all night. In someone else's room, alone. SO I get up, even tho my eyes burn. I've only spent about half of my days home so far sleeping in my own bed, and everynight that I do, I've had awful nightmares. I guess this is better than that. I'm loosing a bit of the steam that I came home with. I can't seem to capture the energy that I ( Read more... )

While it's happening, I try to remain in the moment just enough to appreciate it, to capture it with memory, pull it in as it's slipping away. When else will I be able to run my fingers through such a magical mane, but now, it's all mine, for just one night, I won't hold back. When the glow wears off, I'll still have that close up angle burned in ( Read more... )

Last night I made a date for May 15th, 2006.
We are totally gonna make out!!!