i'm gonna take my gauges out sometime soon...because i can. i started curling my hair again because i think it looks fantasmic with my long hair. it's cold down in this basement. it seems like i haven't really been home in a long time, and now that i am home, it feels like a load of crap. i'd like to be not here just so it feels like i don't ( Read more... )

Nathan's friends are starting to come here today and on Friday sometime. This means I won't see him too much...which means I am friendless and I'll be sitting on the computer a lot. I gotta go to work and I'm so tired. I slept too much, and I need to go clean Anne's place tomorrow since I lacked any energy to do it today ( Read more... )

I filled out my application to my college up in Duluth, and I gotta send my high school transcript sometime soon. I figured out all my xmas shopping. I was gonna clothes for myself, but then i realized i don't have enough money for all that crap. i calculated all my college tutition and stupid fees and it's gonna be pretty cheap which makes me ( Read more... )

i'm in a horrible mood feeling horribly sick. i'm almost positive that it's malnutrition. my head is throbbing and i feel dirty ( Read more... )

I don't know what happened today. I don't know why things are feeling lonely. Whatever it was today that made me decide to dig my grave and plan a funeral for myself obviously really brought me down pretty fast. Since I've been pretty content with my life and the things going on. However, lately I've been dragging ( Read more... )

I use to idolize Jesse Michaels from Operation Ivy/Common Rider and Geoff Rickely from Thursday. I still believe that they have great minds...BUT I bumped into something wwwwaaaaaaaaaayyy more complex. Nathan showed me many amazing things. None more amazing than showing Tool ( Read more... )

i had a good thanksgiving at nathan's aunt's house. i was nervous...i was scared. i felt all the feelings that you'd feel if you were in a room full of beauitful people...and you were naked and you had a rash on your body that was disgusting ( Read more... )

wow ( Read more... )

so being a maid SUCKS. 25 bucks is what i get...well actually i got 23 dollars and a 5 dollar scrubway coupon. bull shit. that's what it is ( Read more... )

so i'm pretty much a maid now. tomorrow i start cleaning anne's house...HUGE list. then i'm thinking of cleaning crystal's because i can. i have quite a bit of free time during the weekdays and picking up some extra cash is nice since i convince myself every breathing day that i'm in dire need of money. i mind as well wear my halloween costume ( Read more... )